The 'KILIG' factor...

The 'KILIG' factor...what is it exactly, and what does it prove or show? What exactly does it determine? I really don't know, and it has been iritating me so much these past few weeks. 'KILIG' is the filipino term for the butterflies you get in your stomach. That little smile you get whenever you feel it, and that tingling sensation you get all over your body. That is it, but what's it for??? I don't know.

You see there is this boy, yes a boy. He makes me feel 'kilig' all the time. I'm sure one or two of you have felt this before. The feeling that every second you spend with that person makes that second so much better than any other second you spend living. It's the feeling that when he smiles at you, your grin gets so wide it goes from ear to ear. Any time he speaks, you have the widest smile, when he looks at you, your knees get weak. When your eyes meet, you get so lost. He occupies your dreams, your thoughts, even ones that have nothing to do with him whatsoever. Take for example, you go to a store that has an interesting looking chair, you start to think of how weird that chair is, how weird it would be to sit in that chair and how uncomfortable it would be. Eventually you start thinking, I wonder how so and so would sit on this chair, how would he look sitting on this chair....Right??? I hate it. I hate how much I LOVE it. HEEELP.

I've tried fighting it. Try as I might, I can't help myself. I can't stop it, and at times I don't know if I really want to. Every little thing he does is so darn adorable. There is nothing he does that would decrease his 'kilig' factor. All those things that I would see as faults on other people, becomes something totally acceptable when it comes to him. The way he pronounces his "R's", the way he frowns at you, and when you frown back, smiles the widest smile. Is it love? Is it infatuation, lust, desperation? lol. What is it exactly. Tell me!



-Kilig to the max,
Jay