To the Right, To the Right...

Am I right in saying that, here in the Philippines, there is a stigma surrounding gay men? It seems as though if you are to say or be labeled as being gay, everyone thinks you want to be a girl, act like a girl, dress like a girl, and have their sex organs. NOT ME. I love my penis and I'm not trading it with anything else in the world.
Honestly though, gay men portrayed in film and television are always gay guys who are dressed up as women, who speak as though flowers and purses are falling out of their mouths, and so on and so forth. The thing is, it's not the case. Many men out there who are gay do not want to be women. They like the fact that they are guys, they just happen to like other guys.

I'm personally not saying it's wrong to be effiminate, but I think it's wrong that others generalize people in that one area. I have many friends back in Canada, who I know are gay, but they don't act like women, nor do they want to be women. They are top athletes, businessmen, gym junkies, do karate or martial arts and you see them doing everything that most straight men like to do, except for having sex with women. I know people like that here as well. So why must there be this stigma that all gay guys want to wear purses, skirts and lipstick and prance around in a field of flowers, holding their boyfriends hands all day? Those who want to be cross-dressers, those who want to be transgendered, you know...go ahead. I'm not stopping you or saying that what you want to do is wrong. The only thing for me is that I'm not like that, at all. Yes, I like boys(isn't it bovious?) but I don't want others to disregard me, judge me, and think that I can't do manly things, play sports, carry heavy load, and other stuff like that. Because I can. And I admit, it's not our faults that there are so many out there who still think that only real men can do those kind of things. Those barbaric, primeval minds are really nothing to worry myself about. I'm fairly sure I will seldom work or associate with those types, but it happens. And when it does, I don't want to be classified as such.

It's the one thing that is preventing me from YELLING to the world that I like guys. Actually I like that guy, the one over there, with the beautiful lips, the chubby cheeks, and oh so adorable eyes. That one! I can't proclaim to people how I really feel because I'm afraid it will affect me at work, at home, with my friends, etc. I never ever want to be introduced as, "Oh this is my gay friend, Jay." No. Do that to me once and you will most likely never get a reply from any msgs you send me on my phone! I wouldn't introduce you as, "Hi, this is my friend, he likes girls." Why? It's not the biggest part of me, it's just a part of me. It doesn't define me as a person. The little things that make up my personality...those are what define me as a person.

So...I'm letting out this big sigh as I end this post...."PHEEEEEW!" I finally got that out of my system. And imagine, I have no outlet of this here in the Philippines. I don't know anyone who is like me, as of yet. I don't know any straight-acting gay guys. If you are, and you want to talk, and you're willing to let me lash out all my frustrations at you..lol..then give me a shout. I need these guys so I can finally talk what I want to talk about.

Here are a few more pictures to soothe your mood.


This is Alex from Stormbreaker.


Bruno Schuind




Anyhow, that's all for now.

Twisted and Complicated,
Jay

NOOOOOOOOOOO

Nooooooooooooo! The guy I would watch on RPN's Kol TV is away today! Why? I have no clue. Darn, darn, darn. My day just got all gloomy. lol.

Being Single

Being single, being free, being able to do and say what you want...I love that feeling. And yet, I feel as though being single has become like a virus which has taken over me. Why? Why do I feel as though I have a case of "bachelorism"? What exactly is "bachelorism". It's what happens to you, if you've been single for a long period of time. There are signs, these past few days, past few weeks, that have been clawing at me, telling me I need to get some action! I need action of any kind. I really do. lol.

Sign #1

Everyone, as in everyone, has been looking like a potential mate. Even the guy from the kanto, who I see everyday seems alluring to me. lol.


Sign #2

The fact that the last time I was sharing a bed with someone was with two of my friends when we went to Tagaytay for some vacation time.

Sign #3

I watch a channel and a T.V. show, not because I find it interesting in any way but because the host is soo damn good-looking. It's that show, Kol TV, on RPN. Yes, yes, it's that show where he asks people to text in and play for money and stuff. I don't actually play, nor can I guess most of the words he's asking me to. BUT his face just won't let me change the channel. :) I'm trying to find a picture of him. Next time I'll definitely put one up.

Sign #4

Physical contact has been a god-send. For example the other day, I was on an FX, and the leg and hand of the guy beside me was rubbing with mine and it got me EXCITED. That's how sad it is.

AAHHH! lol. I need me a boy. Any boy. I just need one right here, right now. I sound so desperate and horny lol. But, the sad thing is there is more than just a hint of truth in that statement. I used to adore the single life. I could hang out with any group of friends, go out or stay in whenever I felt like it, and flirt with anyone I could. Now, it seems as though all the flirting is going nowhere, I go out and nothing happens. What is happening to me? Someone get me out of this rut.

Anyway, if anyone would like to APPLY...please do! just e-mail me or leave a comment. hehe. wow. I am desperate. And yes, I admit I am now desperate. I just need a date, just one to at least prove to myself I'm ok, and that I can beat this virus called "bachelorism".

Here's a little video for you guys. I just wished this guy, whose real name is Chester Nolledo by the way, was the guy from my kanto. Too bad,he's not. But if he was, you can be certain he would not be alone in that video. HAHAHA.

Summer Heat

The summer heat is on, and the sizzle is everywhere to be found. Especially since my AC broke down on me; how unreliable!! Now, I've been taken to wearing absolutely nothing all day, which in truth, makes me feel HOTTER lol! But honestly I've never experienced this sort of sweltering heat for as long as I can remember. I mean, this is my first summer in the Philippines and I expected it to be hot, but not scorching to the core hot! lol. So what have I been doing to hide from the heat? I do what other 'pinoys' do when they get too hot...I take up shelter in the many air-conditioned malls scattered all over the country. I think I've been to every single mall in the Metro[seriously].


And with the summer heat, of course, the extremely hot come out to play. Everywhere you'll see them, may it be lying on the white sands of Boracay, roaming the mall, cooling down in Tagaytay, or catching a movie at Greenbelt, the steamiest of them all are to be found. The best thing about it is, either they don't have much on, or they look delicious in whatever they're wearing. But now, I leave you with a few guys who make me feel HOT even with the AC on high. lol. Enjoy.

Enchong Dee

JC de Vera

The Pic of the Week

Twisted and Complicated,

-Jay